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Thursday, March 5, 2009

I wish......

I was crying as if I have ever cried in my entire life so far. I looked around.There was noone out to console me. There was noone to lean on. I searched for a shoulder where i could find a solace. But I was in total darkness through which I couldn't see anyone. I din't know why I was crying. The tears was rushing out from my eyes which slowly rolled down on my cheeks. I can feel the taste of tears. It was savory. I wondered why is it so and thought it must be bitter. May be my bitter mood prompted me to think in that way. I have always loved solitude. Solitude is a blessing; at the same time I hated loneliness, loneliness is a curse. The worst curse you can ever get in your life. I was lonely at that time. I desperately longed for a company. But at midnight who is going to give me a company. I could sense all my roommates were sleeping peacefully. I felt pity on myself. I allowed my tears to flow out some more time. Until I felt I am back I cried. After all the drama, yes, I would love to call myself what I did was a drama, I stopped crying. I felt more relaxed as usual. True, tears have a magical power which will wash away all your sorrows with the tears you shed out.So I dozed off soon after that. I saw a dream in that someone was whispering me that why did you cry when I was with you always, when I would wipe off all your tears and bring your beautiful smile back,when you could find solace always in me. I smiled and said I knew you were there always for me and ran to his wide open arms. Suddenly I opened my eyes and realized that it was just a dream, a sweet dream which would never happen in real life. With that realization I resumed my sleep or else I may have to face the bitter reality of being late in the office next day.

3 comments:

വള്ളിക്കുന്ന് Vallikkunnu said...

u know, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

Anonymous said...

nice blog....didnt realise my roomate had a hard core blogger deep within her...i was wrong abt my insomnia then ...didnt hear u crying :(

Kala said...

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