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Monday, March 9, 2009

International Women's Day-Some Wild Thoughts

Yesterday was women's day. In my office we celebrated it on friday itself since the actual day fell on Sunday. I think they had arranged for some interesting programmes like who dressed well n some games too. Anyways I din't go that way. Don't think that I am not proud to be a woman.Of course I am but least interested to take part in such celebrations. Yesterday morning I wished all my hostel mates and they too wished me back and we din't have any celebrations. Accidentally I happened to read the book "A Thousand Splendid Suns" yesterday. It was about the endurance of a woman has to suffer in her whole life time just because she is not a man and she is entitled to suffer all those sufferings till her last breath on this earth. Anyways I was not about to talk all these things since all these were always discussed and being discussed, will be discussed in the future also without bringing much change into a woman's life. What I thought was that why we are having a Women's Day whereas we are not having a Men's Day. I shared my thought with my roommate. She retorted that its because all other days are theirs and both of us laughed out this. Even I too thought the same. We are celebrating this day for women are considered to be weak and just to motivate them or inspire them or show support for them. I felt its a silly reason. Then I thought of Gandhi Jayanti and so many other days which we celebrate every year. All those days we celebrate because of their importance or the changes or sacrifices made by them to the world. So atlast I reached at a conclusion that we are celebrating this particular day as Women's Day for the same reason and I felt happy and proud. I know whatever I said did not make nay sense to you may be for me also,who knows.....

Thursday, March 5, 2009

I wish......

I was crying as if I have ever cried in my entire life so far. I looked around.There was noone out to console me. There was noone to lean on. I searched for a shoulder where i could find a solace. But I was in total darkness through which I couldn't see anyone. I din't know why I was crying. The tears was rushing out from my eyes which slowly rolled down on my cheeks. I can feel the taste of tears. It was savory. I wondered why is it so and thought it must be bitter. May be my bitter mood prompted me to think in that way. I have always loved solitude. Solitude is a blessing; at the same time I hated loneliness, loneliness is a curse. The worst curse you can ever get in your life. I was lonely at that time. I desperately longed for a company. But at midnight who is going to give me a company. I could sense all my roommates were sleeping peacefully. I felt pity on myself. I allowed my tears to flow out some more time. Until I felt I am back I cried. After all the drama, yes, I would love to call myself what I did was a drama, I stopped crying. I felt more relaxed as usual. True, tears have a magical power which will wash away all your sorrows with the tears you shed out.So I dozed off soon after that. I saw a dream in that someone was whispering me that why did you cry when I was with you always, when I would wipe off all your tears and bring your beautiful smile back,when you could find solace always in me. I smiled and said I knew you were there always for me and ran to his wide open arms. Suddenly I opened my eyes and realized that it was just a dream, a sweet dream which would never happen in real life. With that realization I resumed my sleep or else I may have to face the bitter reality of being late in the office next day.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Musings

I want to write something. But being lethargic as usual I can't write. When I just think of the events happening in my life I feel like I ll write about this. But laziness which took birth inside me on the very same day I was born doesn't allow me to do it. I have been expecting a miracle to happen so that I will get red of this habit. Do I sound stupid?Yes, I am. Being a little stupid is good. I know very well that without a sincere effort from myside nothing is going to happen. Atleast I should have an honest desire. Or else its just a feeling. A feeling which can be real if I do something or else a feeling which ll last for a few moments and ends as usual. Good. I wrote something out of nothing. Not bad. Let me start doing some work now. Or else I will be another dead asset for my company which is already struggling to breathe through the current difficult situation.