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This is supposed to be a story.I wrote this on an impulse a few days before. But after writing I was not satisfied. So decided not to post. Now again I feel like posting it. Have not done any editing or something of that sort. So please bear me for posting this here. The story starts here.

She sat there with swollen eyes. Tears were still rolling down on her cheeks. The people on the platform dint give her much notice. They were too busy to assure a seat in the train which came late as usual. It was an ordinary day. No special occasion was around the corner. So the station was not crowded much except for the regular passengers. She saw things happening around through her tears which made it obscure. Anyway she gave it least attention. Though her body was there, mind was somewhere else. It was loitering in the unknown ways it has never come across.

A police man came near to her and asked which train you wanted to go. She dint hear him first. So he repeated it a little more loudly. She turned her head and looked at the policeman."I..I don't know.""What?"The policeman gave her a shocking look."I mean I am going to Chennai and I am waiting for my friend. He will join me soon."She managed to give a reply somehow.The policeman was not satisfied at her reply. May be he wasn't convinced at her reply. He said,"The train is after one hour.Its getting dark and its not safe to sit here alone. Go and sit in ladies' waiting room.".She gave him a shabby smile and nodded.The policeman gave her back the smile and left.

The train which came left the platform and a few people still remained here and there. She could sense some staring eyes at her which were not so comfortable. So she lifted her luggage and went to the waiting room.She entered the waiting room and amde herself found a place to sit and keep her luggage. She observed the room. There were not many. An old lady was sitting uncomfortably in the plastic chair trying to make her comfortable by moving every now and then. Another one was a girl who may be a student reading some novel. A mom was trying to put her child to sleep by patting on its back. It was unusually quiet.Anyhow noone seemed to be interested in a conversation which she felt like a blessing.She was in no mood of conversing with anyone.

Her train was at late night. Still more than three hours or so. She came early not in the expectation of her friend's company, which she knew well by this time that would never happen again. But, just to make herself free or else she would have gone crazy pondering over the things which happened in her life. So she set off early. At home she lied that her friend would join her at railway station. When they called her she said the friend was there with her. She had come early to the station even before also. Has spent time with her best friend who Called her now as just a friend.Yes...Thats correct. The best friends are now "just friends". She didnt know what went wrong in the past three years. Both of them were more or less similar when they first get to know each other. Shared similar views and decided to be best friends forever which dint even last for more than three years as it happened now.Both of them were more of introverts though not extreme. Didnt have many close friends. So they shared everything between them both happiness and sorrows. They found solace in each other. It never turned out to be a romantic relation. But it was stronger than that. Thay talked about anything and evrything on earth. Some were informative some were just stupid things. She was always there for him. He too cared her too much.

But as the time passed there seemed to be seen cracks. He dint remain no more introvert. He became more social. She was happy for his positive changes. He got more friends and spent lots of time with them.Often forgot to keep in touch with her, but she waited for him.She knew that her best friend could ever forget her.But what happened was that he started to avoid her slowly which hurt her a lot. He seldom got time to share things with her. There started to have initial sparks. She too started reacting. Things got worse. One day he called and asked her to stop calling him. He said she had become a nuisance and pleaded her to give some mental peace. She was shocked at what he told. She felt like her breath has been stopped.However disputes have been happened between them this was the least expected thing for her. She was fighting back her tears. But she had no other option other than to leave him since she always wanted him to be happy. She had always thanked God for giving him as her friend. But now it is the punishment she is getting for all the wrong doings in her life. She promised him she wouldnt call again and kept the phone. She spent the whole night crying.In the morning she had to go to somewhere. And thats how she decided to go to Chennai to meet her friends.Its not like it would help her to forget the things but just to divert the mind.She thought why did she trust him so much. He was never my brother or boyfriend. He was just another friend whom she loved so much. She started to cry again. Suddenly she realised that the old lady was staring at her for quite some time. She took out her hanki and wiped her eyes and gave a fading smile at her. She smiled back.

The announcement made for her train.She took her luggage and walked out the waiting room. She saw some familiar face out there. It was him. Her best friend. He was walking towards her. He smiled at her. She couldnt believe her eyes. She thought she was just dreaming.But he reached right in front of her and said,"I am sorry.I dint mean to hurt you."She couldnt believe her eyes and ears.She hugged him and said,"I am sorry too.I dint want to happen things like this.I want you to be my best friend."He said,"I promise We will be the best of friends forever.Now dont cry anymore and lets go back home." He took the luggage from her and walked towards the exit. She saw a kid smiling at her and she too smiled back with wholeheartedly.

Just another one

Nothing special is happening in life. Its just as usual. Seems like days are passing pretty fast. Just trying to be more regular in Twitter. Of course here also. Sometimes I feel like I never wanted to grow up and face the bitter reality of life. May be I am being a coward and don't have enough courage and willingness to fight against the odds. Whatever I are all these things the least. I thought of writing something else and ended up in the same old "Please help me someone" kinda stuff. Sometimes I feel there is a silver lining in every cloud but always the wind will move it away. It reminds me of a forward which goes like this "whenever I get the key to success, someone changes the lock". Isn't it funny and thought provoking? Well.I just felt so. Let me write something more creative rather than ranting some stupid things like this.

Some thoughts on vision

Today on my way to hospital with mom I read a writing written on the wall of St.Thomas College which aptly states my current plight.It goes like this"The most pathetic state of a human is to have sight without vision"I don't remember who said this. Must be someone famous. But how true it is. All the great personalities on earth had a vision.Gandhiji had a vision for independent IndiaThe main reason behind my laziness is that I don't have a vision or aim in life.I take life as it comes. Never try to make any change in it. I think everyone and every organisation should have a vision to achieve something. The ultimate aim should be to reach that vision or to realise it. Easily said than done. Anyway lemme think what shall be my vision. Till then cyanora.

Life sucks!!!!!!!

Its been quite a long time I have written anything in my blog. When I wanted to write my internet turned its face away. And caught up in so many other things. Nothing interesting happening. I am just moving with the flow. Don't know where will it end? But who cares at all.Read Chetan Bhagat's new novel 2 States. Loved it. I thought FPS was his best so far. Well..2 States is a threat to that. It has got the sarcasm and humour as usual. A must read one. I think I should seriously look out for a new job. Or else I ll be jeopardising my own life which I can't let happen. Thinking of becoming more frequent in blogosphere. So shall see you soon.