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So many question marks!Thats what going through my mind.Starting wirh what am I doing to why the hell am on this earth.Life is so strange.Some people ll never learn no matter how bad experience u had in past.Ok,let me stop this mourning, thats what my friends Always say me.May be am the epidome of pessimism they have seen in their life.I was just going through my posts.The last one was in march i guess. That's more than three months. But life is very hectic nowadays. Or more precisely since I joined bank.Always wanted to write something but internet wwas more like a dream. Well the consequence of my decision and I am entitled to bear it. Anyway now I am back. So lets see more often.

Happy Women's Day....

Tomorrow is the centenary of Inter National Women's Day....On the eve of women's day I wish all the women irrespective of caste and creed, race or ethnicity or any other differences, a very happy women's day...This is our day.Let's celebrate it.But how?By conducting femina shows or going for kitty parties or anything of that sort which the world has labelled as that's what all women can do. Is that all are we able to do?No...we can do much more than that and we have proved that too. There are so many role models around us to follow. Still we are hearing the death of a poor girl robbed and brutally raped, later had to succumb to death. Why is that so?Isn't it time for the men to see women as just their lust satisfying objects. Doesn't she have a status much higher than that.Isn't she his mom, sister or daughter?When will our male folk change their view point?Will that ever happen?Is there any ray if hope in that direction?I can't see much.But still I hope because that's all I can do.Anyway let's have a toast for the centenary of women's day and swear we will bring ourselves and our fellow women also in the forefront of the arena.

My training in SBT-An Intro

Yes...You heard me right.I am in SBT working as a PO.It was all of a sudden.Its been a couple of months I have been working here. A lot of confusions were surrounding on me whether to join or not. All the clouds are moved and the sky is clear now and am here in a nationalized bank in office cadre.Getting training in the head office located at Poojappura, Trivandrum after 2 months of joining. Trivandrum is a place which I have been only for writing exams or so. For that I dont have much things to remember about this place. Sure my one week so called Industrial Training in third yr summer vacation was an amazing experience I must agree. Other than that this place was special for some personal reasons. So as soon as I got down in Trivandrum a lot of memories flooded to my mind though it is more hurting now. Anyway all said and done the training seems to be a wonderful experience. And I am just comparing the way I was trained in IT, a private sector with banking happened to be a public sector.Both are service sectors. So ultimately customer satisfaction is the motto. This is just an intro. More things ll be coming in the upcoming days...

Random Thoughts

Today is May 17. More than half the month is gone. Feel like time nowadays moves very fast. May be in the speed of light. Though it is little exaggerated.But its true. Once Monday comes within no time Friday also comes and two days which you call as weekend. On those two days you just wonder what shall I do or how can I spend this weekend. Before you reach on some conclusion its sunday night and you are opening your eyes on another Monday morning. And my weekend was also not so different from this. I too wasted my weekend with plans and thoughts but not putting anything in practice. Let me talk about something seems to be useful than just blabbering about how futile my weekend was.

May is the month in which lots of results are announced, the ones which may change your future upside down. Tenth and plus two results are out. I think CBSE results are yet to come.I am not much aware of CBSE happenings since I did all my schooling under state board. Now when I look back those were the days when you eagerly waited for the rank holders who scored the highest and stars among their friends.I used to read all the interviews given by the toppers though everytime they used to tell the same winning strategies, motivations and their goals in different voices with different faces.But now the authority has scrapped ranking system saying the ranking system contributes a lot of pressure to the student community and leads even to suicides. I really don't know how by just removing the ranking system we can reduce the pressure on students especially in the current scenario where the parents want their wards to secure first place among everywhere not only in studies but in extra curricular activities also. Today summer holidays are no more holidays but an opportuinity to train the kids for next standard or in some other activities with skilled trainers in all the fields. It has a schedule just like your school. So what's the use of having vaccation if you can't play and have fun or just chill and relax in the "hot sun"?But you can't turn your back from the reality then you will be behind this rat race. The motto of today's world is survival of the fittest and if you want to survive there is no other choice left out. Cool.. When I started writing I didn't have any idea what am I going to write, just started. But now feel good.And one question to you? Do you support ranking system? If you ask me I ll say I like ranking because it exists in all ways of our life whether you like it or not in some or other form. Then why can't you prepare for it from childhood.Ofcourse I oppose the blind competition without any concern for the fellow beings. But a healthy competition is always good for all.

Why do I live?

This weekend is a pretty long. That's what I thought on thursday. Couldn't go home as there was some work related commitment. I am not a workaholic but still sometimes I feel it is also an addiction. When you have work you don't think of your food or any other things. Work is not all in your life. Its not the ends in itself atleast for me. Its a means to the end. Still sometimes I am hooked to it. Was wondering how would I spend these three days given that almost everyone has gone home except for a few who got work. I spent the whole day watching TV though there were nothing worthy to watch. While I was watching I had some kind of realizations. Well, I am having these kinda thoughts not for the first time. Anyway the thoughts were weaving inside my head when I was trying to concentrate fully on movie.I have spent one third of my life on this earth taking into consideration that I will live as a normal human being's life span predicted by scientists. But what I have done so far?Have I made any changes in my life or others? Did I make any difference to the earth by giving birth to me.Not much I guess.Or was I just another weed which has to be removed before it adversely affects some other living creature?A lot of negative thoughts I surmise.Now only one more day has to go then just another manic monday.Till that I will think some more weird things and put it on my blog.Happy Easter to all.....

Selfless love

Is there anything called selfless love? CAn you love anyone without expecting anything back but love. The most sacred love in this world is told to be the love of a mom towards her child. IS that also selfless?While you analyse it meticulously you can see that a mom may not complain even when you neglect her or don't love her as your boyfriend or girlfriend does.But it doesn't mean that she never expects love in return.Let us look at the same issue from a different angle. If her child was not hers or putting it in simple words can she love some other child as she does her own child. I think its almost impossible though we used to boast like all mothers only know to love kids but their own. ofcourse there are exceptions.But very very rare. Then there is another thing called sympathy. Most of the times people mistake sympathy for love. Sympathy comes out of your humanity. Its a concern for another living creature.You can never count it as love.In that case you don't expect anything back, anything at all.I strongly feel that you can't love anyone without a small trace of love back if not anything else.If anyone who can counterargue with me always welcome.Because I seriously want to know it.

There was an article in Hindu a few days before with headline as Selfishness and Altruism. In the article a research study based on two well known ship wreckages which happend within a gap of three years or so, with one ship being Titanic, says that in case of titanic disaster the majority who survived it was women and children whereas in the other case it was a minority. The study points that in case of titanic everyone was aware that a disater is ahead long time before it actually happened but in the other case it happened as an unexpected one. In the case of titanic people had the time to think about moral values and ethics but in other one the basic instinct, to help themselves, played a major role. So does it show that at the end of the day all of us are selfish?

A long pending poem

Wrote these lines long time before. Now I am posting it since my PM has left for the day and I have stuck with my requirement.So nothing else to do.I wanted to add few more lines to this but I am totally blank at present except for some weird thoughts as usual. Though I considered putting those in words, I feel very lazy to do. But for sure I am gonna publish it soon.I wish if there was some background music I could add now just to emphasise what I said as if a new movie is coming soon.

I dont know why the promises are made
Are they made just not to keep
Why he always expected me to keep all
while he never kept even a single one
it was late for me to realize that
for him those were mere words
when I lived only for it

Just for sake!

I always think about writing when I am not in a position to note it down. Mostly lying on bed when all my roommates are fast asleep.But when I sit down to write something mind ll be totally blank.Wonder what shall I write about?Well...I know there are million things to write about.But for the sake of writing is not a good habit though at times you have to as I am doing right now.It reminds me the lines which I learned long time before, though not so long,in my school days, I think it was told by M.T., a novel or something like that is conceived in a writer's mind and it is delivered after suffering a lot of pain.That's really true. And the whole pain becomes an enjoyment or a forgotten memory when you see your creative work lying in front of your eyes just like a mom who forgets all her pain at the very sight of her new born. It doesn't mean that I am a writer or an aspiring one. Just felt like saying so. Thats all.A group of words doesn't make a sentence.Its applicable to all the creative work like dance, music, art et al.Let it be anything.It should have its own life and it gets that life when it carries the true meaning of what it intended to.There should be an honest and sincere desire for what you want to do and that honesty and sincerety should be there in your work. When you are writing something you should enjoy it and do without worrying whether it ll enjoy others or not.Of course a good readership is any writer's dream and that is his one and only one asset apart from the talent of writing.But that should not be the soul purpose.Its a medium for conveying your thoughts to others. If you are going to put others thoughts in your writing whats the use of it?It just a mere waste of time for all.There is no productivity.Its just money and fame oriented both won't last beyond a certain period.Why do you want to deceive your own conscince while there is no need of it.

Ok..let me stop this nonsense here.I am noone to comment about anyone.But I have all the freedom to express my views.After all its my fundamental right until it hurts someone.And given the statistics of my readership I don't think its gonna read by anyone let alone hurt. So no worries.

Home...Sweet home....

Yes..Am back after a lng time.Sorry.I was not able to access blogger from office bcoz it was blocked at office(ofcourse i was using it too much....:)Now am back @ my home where noone will block my access to any of the sites i visit..Well...I came home; rather I should say I have been made so. Am under so called sabbatical.that is jargon for VPP in our company.I dint have any problem in putting me in VPP but as far as I am concerned being in VPP doesnt mean that I am fired, so I lost my previleges as an employee. Its understandable to cut the salary.But I couldnt fathom why they reduced the mail box size so much that it would be better if they have blocked our mails. On the top of it they revoked our internet acces also. And all these happened all of a sudden that we dint even get a breathing space.i.e.,Even b4 VPP has been implemented and without any prior notification.Enough is enough.I decided not to go to office and dint go also in the following days till the D-Day though I was allowed to go.The rest of the days till I left Chennai was sweet and bitter.Sweet in the sense that it was the counted few days I had with my sweet hostel mates and bitter I dint have lunch almost all days.And it was too hot in Chennai that you would feel like you are living in hell.For the first few days till the VPP started I was alone at hostel.On those days I was reckoning how can I make use of this long leave fruitfully. ThenI decided to be regular on my blog and write about my chennai life which lasted for almost one and a half years.I know now its been two three days am at home and havnt started anything.But its always better to be late than never,right?So guys I ll start to write about my chennai life shortly..Wait and watch..Its coming soooooon...;)

International Women's Day-Some Wild Thoughts

Yesterday was women's day. In my office we celebrated it on friday itself since the actual day fell on Sunday. I think they had arranged for some interesting programmes like who dressed well n some games too. Anyways I din't go that way. Don't think that I am not proud to be a woman.Of course I am but least interested to take part in such celebrations. Yesterday morning I wished all my hostel mates and they too wished me back and we din't have any celebrations. Accidentally I happened to read the book "A Thousand Splendid Suns" yesterday. It was about the endurance of a woman has to suffer in her whole life time just because she is not a man and she is entitled to suffer all those sufferings till her last breath on this earth. Anyways I was not about to talk all these things since all these were always discussed and being discussed, will be discussed in the future also without bringing much change into a woman's life. What I thought was that why we are having a Women's Day whereas we are not having a Men's Day. I shared my thought with my roommate. She retorted that its because all other days are theirs and both of us laughed out this. Even I too thought the same. We are celebrating this day for women are considered to be weak and just to motivate them or inspire them or show support for them. I felt its a silly reason. Then I thought of Gandhi Jayanti and so many other days which we celebrate every year. All those days we celebrate because of their importance or the changes or sacrifices made by them to the world. So atlast I reached at a conclusion that we are celebrating this particular day as Women's Day for the same reason and I felt happy and proud. I know whatever I said did not make nay sense to you may be for me also,who knows.....